So I’m just finishing up my 17 day vacation and getting ready to go back to work tomorrow. I was very much looking forward to my vacation so that I could have more time, catch up on the mile long list of things that needed to be done at home, and have less to concentrate on overall. After all, those of you who have a full time job plus kids know exactly how hard it is. In fact, its actually exhausting. There are many days where I’ve sat back in my chair at work daydreaming how nice it would be to stay home. Thoughts run through my mind how much more time I’d have and how my life would be ultra organized.

Well, let me tell you what I’ve learned from being home with two kids for 17 days in a row… it’s damn hard! I’ve loved every minute with my kids and will miss them terribly tomorrow, but I have to admit it is kind of appealing to know that tomorrow when I go into work I get to sit down in a chair for eight hours and not have to move unless I want to. Not only that, I’m guessing that when I talk with customers over the phone they probably won’t start crying or throw a tantrum if I I say something wrong.

I can now compare the “working mom” life and the “stay at home mom” life. To my surprise, the same problem is still lying within in me. I feel like I don’t have enough time to catch up on my list, which then makes me feel like I’m not enjoying my weekends the way I should be because I’m trying to catch up before the next week rolls around. It’s a continuous cycle that I can’t seem to break.

My plan now is to find a solution. I’m going to start by scheduling one day off per month at home by myself. I’m hoping this will be a step in the right direction. We’ll see where that takes me and then I will continue to make adjustments until I feel a little more calm.